20150211

I JUST CAN'T WAIT...

crossing my legs
leaning over to tie my shoes and not feeling my stomach on my legs
wearing a fitted shirt and not seeing bulges on my back
wearing a fitted shirt and not feeling like i have to arrange it all the time
wearing tight pants with a shirt that doesn't have to cover my but
crossing my legs
skinny jeans
knee high boots
high heels
spaghetti straps
tank tops in the summer
bikini in the summer
regular jeans
pants that will last longer because the inner thigh doesn't get worn out
running outside
running up the stairs
collar bones
knees
elbows
shopping at regular stores
sitting comfortably on the airplane
not having to extend the seat belt on the plane
pencil skirts
pencil pants

These are all things that i can't wait to do or see when my body's journey has reached it's end.  i say my body's journey because my journey to be healthy will never end - even when i am finally in single digit sizes.  you get to see my journey...you will see my progress and you will see my results.  i haven't decided when i am going to add photos yet because that is going to be a step that will require me to dig deep and use every bit of courage in me!  in the meantime...

I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR THE POSSIBILITIES!!!!!!

20150210

NUMB3R5

221
14.75
13.5
13
40.5
39.5
52.5
31
32.75
17
17
39

what are all these numbers?  they are my numbers - my measurements, my weight, my BMI.  they all mean something, but what is that something?  that something is that i didn't stay on plan.  i didn't fight as hard as i should have.  i didn't pay attention to what i was ingesting.  i didn't stay as active as i should have.  i was lazy.  i didn't care enough.  i didn't flip the switch.  i didn't DECIDE to put myself and my health first.  as important as these numbers are, they are not important enough for me to stress over.  why?  because they won't be here for long.  they have a short shelf life and there is really only one number that matters - 1!  1 because that is how many lives i have to live!  1 because i am the only one that can make the decision!  1 because i am in competition with myself! 1 because that is how many people that are on my team!  i am RELEASING my inner fat girl so that i can finally let go of my outer fat girl!  i have to rearrange my thoughts and i have to align them with my goals.  i have to FLIP THE SWITCH and MAKE THE DECISION!